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1.
Saint 03:12
First he built me Then he broke me He gave me breath and Then he choked me He said he’d give me something Real to cry about Instead he Gave me something big To lie about But then you say he’s a saint Aa-ah I sit here without complaints Aa-ah You all think he’s a saint Aa-ah So hallelujah I learned to walk She learned to tiptoe And she was there But I felt alone 'Cause every time I Cried too hard or I Screamed out in fear She would only say Please stop What if the neighbours hear? And she said that He couldn’t help it If I had known pain like him I would be just like him She said that He couldn’t help it If I had known pain like him I would be just like him x2 He’s a saint cause he pays to fix Everything that he’s broken He’s a saint ‘Cause she swears He’s never meant A word he’s spoken He’s a saint Gave me breakfast Gave me braces Gave me money Showed me grace When he offered to Kill himself instead of me He's a saint, aa-ah You all think he's a saint, aa-ah So hallelujah
2.
Happy Family 03:16
Chorus: I’ve got a happy family I’ve got a broken home I’ve got a happy family I’ve got a broken home Don’t judge, don’t judge Don’t think you know more than us Don’t judge, don’t judge Tell me that you’re just like us I was a such a sweet girl But my temper Was ugly for my gender That’s what I remember I was such a shy girl Scared and silent But when I was angry I would turn to violence And every time I’d act like that They’d say she’s spoiled brat Hey, way to downplay The fact that when they flew off the handle I was learning from example, oh! Chorus I was such a strange girl Full of wonder But I fell for boys who Drained me of my colour I became a sick girl Good for nothing It runs in the family I should have seen it coming And when I fell into depression Then they’d start with the confessions Like see, this isn’t on me I didn’t even want kids ‘cause I knew you’d be like this, oh! Chorus I live in fight or flight You can’t just terrorize A little girl and then expect That she’ll turn out all right I live in guilt and shame You can’t always complain That you failed as a parent ‘cause That shit gets stuck Inside my brain Chorus
3.
The Curse 02:59
I never had a loud voice, they used to Say I sounded like a baby bird And when I spoke up you could Barely even hear the words So I would choke instead I never meant to keep a secret But my silence was convenient Now I’m feeling mad Because I’m learning to get louder As I’m growing older And I lived through every time I wished my life was over Now I want to live in peace but if I Never get to talk about the curse It’s always gonna hurt Chorus: Hush little baby Why don’t you make me I’m about to shout the words That nobody’s been saying Hush little girl, don’t say a word Well I’m about to tell the stories Nobody has heard And I won’t keep it to myself I won’t keep it to myself I feel the secrets on my tongue And now they’re spilling out my mouth Spilling out my mouth I won't keep it to myself It’s in my blood, I was taught to be ashamed of who I come from Because we're losers, we are always the unlucky ones We never talk about what made us hate us so we never Break the bonds that suffocate us Tell me 'bout the curse The reason why it only rains When we show up The reason why my flowers die And my bands break up The reason why I won’t be happy When I’m all grown up And everybody hates us, talks behind Our backs, humiliates us, make it stop I just can’t take this! Chorus You didn’t mean to pass it down a generation, it’s the truth that stops our pessimist imaginations You are all his broken pieces and We are all your broken pieces and The truth is gonna liberate us So don’t keep it to yourself Don’t keep it to yourself You feel the secrets on your tongue And now they’re spilling out your mouth Spilling out your mouth I won't keep it to myself
4.
Make It Work 02:40
If you wanted nice songs You should have acted like a grown up No screaming bloody murder No empty threats to blow the house up I didn't want it to it to be like this I wanted to forgive and forget but fuck it I wasn't gonna let it out Until way after both of you had kicked the bucket But you gave me a piano You never thought I'd get a microphone You were counting on my silence While you were screaming in our quiet home So I pushed it down 'Til it hurt Now I'll spit it out I'll make it work You gave me pen and paper You also gave me the material No more writing in a notebook I'm letting everybody hear it all I own all my stories And I get to be the heroine And when I tell my stories I decide who the villain is Please don't blame yourself You were sick and no one got you help But you've got to let me Get this out So I pushed it down 'Til it hurt Now I'll spit it out I'll make it work So I pushed it down 'Til it hurt Now I'll spit it out I'll make it work
5.
Villain 03:11
I have never been the hero No, I have always been The damsel in distress Cause that’s what I do best I look innocent and broken in my Cotton summer dress But then this wild pain animates me Makes me sick And I don’t know wrong from right This wild pain animates me Makes me sick And now I am the villain Right from the start He wasn’t the one in my heart But I was falling apart When I felt empty I’d send him a text We’d eat and he’d pick up the cheque Then after sex I’d have a panic attack Alone in the bath Calling in vain for my ex And when he stood up for himself, I Took all the plates off the shelf Smashed them while screaming Like father like daughter I felt like a monster The anger was stronger than me Boy, you're insignificant Clueless and ignorant I’m a tornado You happened to witness This is much bigger than you, Do we need to review? I’m the girl that you knew Had a death wish, a brain glitch, my mind is real bitch my mind is real bitch and who the hell are you? But then this wild pain animates me Makes me sick And I don’t know wrong from right This wild pain animates me Makes me sick And now I am the villain I come from trauma Raised in drama I can’t be fixed with Marijuana I come from trauma Raised in drama I can’t be fixed with Marijuana
6.
Lady 03:32
I’m old enough to be a vixen I’m old enough to play the victim I’m old enough to stay the night But I’m still the little girl who needs a lullaby, lullaby I’m old enough to be a bride Oh, I could be somebody’s wife But I live in my own little world My friends are walking down the aisle And I am still the flower girl So help me, help me I am just a child in the body of a lady And I am so afraid of who I’m Turning into lately Turning into lately Whoo-o-oo-o-oo So help me, help me I am just a child in the body of a lady And I am so afraid of who I’m Turning into lately Turning into lately Whoo-o-oo-o-oo I don't want to be a mom Until I find my inner calm Because I was the kind of daughter Who cried until her parents couldn't Hold their heads above the water I could make a tiny human The thought of that is all-consuming But how would I know what to do If they scream I'll be screaming too The Family Curse, I'm not immune So help me, help me I am just a child in the body of a lady And I am so afraid of who I’m Turning into lately Turning into lately Whoo-o-oo-o-oo So help me, help me I am just a child in the body of a lady And I am so afraid of who I’m Turning into lately Turning into lately Whoo-o-oo-o-oo
7.
I can’t remember if I’m smart It’s been so long since I passed a Test with flying colours Letter grades were Such a comfort And I’m staring straight into the void I’ve gambled all I’ve got on a Career in making noise I’m trying to listen to my Inner voice I think I’m doing the wrong is it supposed to feel like this I think I’m doing this wrong I think I’m doing the wrong I think I’m doing the wrong Am I supposed to feel like shit? I think I’m doing this wrong I think I’m doing this wrong I’m so good at making bad choices x3 And now I am a cautionary tale I need to be under supervision Because I cannot stop spending My money on stupid, big decisions What a waste of my ambition Nobody thought that I'd drop out I’ve got my relatives counting their blessings 'Cause their kid’s an accountant They can’t believe my mom Allowed it What if I got it all wrong I think I made a mess of this What if I got it all wrong What if I got it all wrong What if I got it all wrong I’m so bad at this, I quit What if I got it all wrong What if I got it all wrong I’m so good at making bad choices x3 And now I am a cautionary tale Listen to your parents Stay in school, play by the rules Don't you want a condo with a Hot tub and a pool? x2
8.
I Promise 03:58
I promise I will walk you there I’ll keep your spine Straight in your chair I will hold your eyes half open I will take you through the motions If you let me I promise I will comb your hair And pick out something nice to wear The darkness you feel When you wake up I’ll hide it under all your makeup If you let me So don’t let go, promise me Don’t let go Don’t let go, promise me Don’t let go I promise I will fight them all The bullies and the cortisol I'll tower over trolls and cheaters In my seven-inch High heeled pleasers If you let me Hold on until your knuckles are white I know we'll make it through the night Just breathe and look at Something solid And I'll be right here if you want me like I promised So don’t let go, promise me Don’t let go Don’t let go, promise me Don’t let go
9.
Hospital Bed 04:43
I don’t believe in God But I know there’s a devil in me That’s what I told the doctor The nurses took my clothes and keys I didn’t take that many, I only want to go to sleep That’s what I told the doctor Somebody called security On me-e Uncross my heart Hope not to die Help me save my own life Help me save my own life Help me save my own life They say the charts are normal They say that I am free to go But I’ve never been normal I guess that’s shows how much they know Uncross my heart Hope not to die Help me save my own life Help me save my own life Help me save my own life I let my worst days put me in a hospital bed I let my worst thoughts Tell me I'd be better off dead Yeah-ah-ah Uncross my heart Hope not to die Help me save my own life Help me save my own life Help me save my own life x2
10.
Better 03:53
You don't have to apologize I'm old enough to empathize How did they get things so wrong? They'll still say that when I am gone. You never had to fight a war I didn't have to grow up poor You didn't drink and I'm so grateful But I take pills to keep me stable I appreciate the good things that I got But we both know This is not where it should stop I know very well, When you grew up it was hell But you did your best And where you messed up I will try so hard to do it Better, better, better, better (Better ‘cause of you I think I Know what I can do to make it) Better, better, better, better (Better ‘cause of you I think I Know what I can do to make it) Better, better, better, better (Better ‘cause of you I think I Know what I can do to make it) Better, better, better, better (Better ‘cause of you I think I Know what I can do to make it) I wish you wouldn’t make believe But I don't have to make you see I know you think that silence is best But this can’t wait until you’re dead I never raised my mother’s child You never had your dreams run wild I’m still alive because you helped Now you need to help yourself I appreciate the good things that I got But we both know This is not where it should stop I know very well, When you grew up it was hell But you did your best And where you messed up I will try so hard to do it Better, better, better, better (Better ‘cause of you I think I Know what I can do to make it) Better, better, better, better (Better ‘cause of you I think I Know what I can do to make it) Better, better, better, better (Better ‘cause of you I think I Know what I can do to make it) Better, better, better, better (x4)

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